The Underbelly of Security

. . . or how our protection becomes a prisonfeatured image blur

So my two friends, immunity and exemption followed me from childhood into adult life. They didn’t cause any problems as long as they weren’t needed. Now, as long as I didn’t need their help, everything’s good. In other words, as long as I did not have to play my wild card, my underbelly was safe.  

But the moment my security was threatened, immunity and exemption would rise to the occasion and save the day by making me feel like I had special privileges that other unfortunate souls did not possess.  As long as they were at peace, meaning as long as my security was not challenged, they did not have to show up. As long as my life was running in a way that confirmed my psyche in how my life should run, they weren’t pressed into action.

There’s nothing wrong with either immunity or exemptions in the right setting achieving the rights of humans and protecting us from diseases. But these had become my way of life to skirt responsibility, avoid conflict of any kind and a whole host of other issues. They became my masters!

Again I say securing comfort is not wrong, when no wrong has been done to secure it. The tab for securing what I felt I needed to feel safe was paid for by others. I became the captain of my ship that sailed the tranquil seas of least resistance. As I was ignorantly trying to save my life at the expense of others, I was really losing it.

When I felt like I was in control, I was actually in a bad way and didn’t know it. Now when I feel like I’m out of control, and refuse to call on my dark friends for help, I find rest in letting go of the control and manipulation.

So, I have learned this;

  • When we use walls to protect us, we are building a prison.
  • Faith does not grow in the house of certainty.
  • The perception of what is possible is on the other side of fear.

I hope this connects with you in some way.

Thanks for reading. You’re braver than you know.

 

 

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Author: RoyZed

I'm a pretty simple country guy who enjoys living in the wide open spaces. I was married two years after graduating from high school. Life was pretty simple. You know, black and white, clear cut, no hassle kind of life style.Then 40 years later our marriage ceded to death. Life as I knew it was over! Pain and suffering have a way of opening you up like a plow tills a field. As a result, my black and white philosophy went to 256 shades of gray. I have a changed perspective, a different heart and a new life. My wife, Carrie, and I live in Kempton, Pennsylvania where we are enjoying our new lives together with our friends, family, horses and a colony of feral cats.

2 thoughts on “The Underbelly of Security”

  1. Is this how you made the change?
    Ephesians 4:20–24 (NASB95) — 20 But you did not learn Christ in this way, 21 if indeed you have heard Him and have been taught in Him, just as truth is in Jesus, 22 that, in reference to your former manner of life, you lay aside the old self, which is being corrupted in accordance with the lusts of deceit, 23 and that you be renewed in the spirit of your mind, 24 and put on the new self, which in the likeness of God has been created in righteousness and holiness of the truth.

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    1. Yes. The process is hard, frustrating, etc. but God is patient because He knows what I’m dealing with in the struggle.

      Ephesians 6:11 identifies the network established in us as methods of the devil.

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